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Wednesday, May 19, 2010

5th year anniversary

This post is to remind own self not to repeat the same mistakes again.


Today mark the 5th year wedding anniversary for me and hb. We have been dating for 4 years before we get married. Altogether is a 9 years relationship. During these 9 years, we have been gone through many many things - many tears, many talks, many fights, and of course many happy moments too. We had 2 major fights and almost split. First fight led to a 3-months cool down period. Where in these 3 months, we did not talk and we did not go out with each other. Second fight made me depressed for 9 months. It is the worst time in my life and it is a very expensive lesson learn. I definitely would not like to go through it again. It also has changed me to a different person:

1. Set no expectation

In the past, during weekend I would like hb to help out in the housework. However hb always not motivated to do housework, even though he just needs to clean the floor. One task only. While I had to handle other things, like washing, cooking and taking care the kids (they are very attached to me). So I would feel frustrated over hb's attitude. I would blame him for not helping.

But now not anymore. Because I have changed my thinking - this is my house too. Why would I care if hb helps to clean the house or not? If I want it clean, I can just do it myself. I don't have to depend or rely on other person. So I stopped blaming him. I stopped feeling not happy just because of he's not helping. If I'm not too tired, I will just do it myself. He probably is tired too and would like to rest. It's just us living here. So no rush to stress ourselves to keep the house freaking clean. And what do I get in return? Hb will automatically do the cleaning part without being asked for. This means he's more willing to do it without the "stress" from me. :)

2. Move from family focus to self focus and now try to balance it with the kids

I used to do lots of things for other people in the family - hb or the kids. I enjoyed doing things for them, and even willing to sacrifice my limited personal time just for them. I feel terrible when I feel all effort spent was not appreciated. But in fact, I never think of is this what they want. If it is not what they want, of course they won't appreciate it. So I'm making myself getting hurt. Feel stupid right? I learn my lesson and started to keep some personal time for myself everyday. That's how the sleeping late habit started. I realized that without fixing myself, I cannot keep others happy. Without fixing myself, I won't be able to have more energy for others. Without fixing myself, I cannot feel happy. So the me time is important. It also helps me to de-stress after a full day work in the office.

3. Have common interest and stay connect

Hb and I used to go exercise - jogging, gym or swimming when we were dating and also after married before we have any kids. We stopped the weekly exercise routine after Lynn was born. Lynn was very much attached to me and I felt bad had to trouble the parents to take care the baby. With no activities being done together, slowly we didn't feel stay connect with each other. Many times, I did not know what is in his mind. Of course we were still talking. However it is just not the same feeling anymore.

Now we will do some activities where both of us enjoy. Whether we are staying at home, or going out, with the kids or without the kids. We have common group of friends or people that we know. We have common topics to talk about.

4. Support each other

In the past, I gave my support to him using my way. Thinking it was what he need. But now, I learn to support him in the way that how he want it. We give each other full freedom on things that we want to do. He is fine with me going out with friends leaving the kids with him at home.

Right now, I would say we are in a very stable relationship and there should be nothing that can break us apart. Hb is not a very romantic person. So I won't hope for any flowers or candle light dinner. In fact in the past 4 years, there was no celebration on this day at all. But this is not important. Most important is, we still love each other and we want to keep this relationship moving on.

Happy Anniversary to me, and have a nice day to all of you. :)

9 comments:

reanaclaire said...

HAPPY 5TH ANNIVERSARY, CHEE YEE AND WISHING U BOTH WILL HAVE MANY MANY MORE YEARS TO JOURNEY TOGETHER!!

Alice Law said...

Happy Anniversary to you and your hubby! Wow, it was a "long winding" roads indeed... it seems after having kids, a new challenge in life will begin!

LOL! Love your thoughts, "when you can't chance others; change yourself!" You are such a touch woman... with a lot of positive energy and wonderful personality that I should learn from!^-^

Please have a nice dayT

smallkucing said...

Happy Anniversary

cleffairy said...

Heh... ur anniversary same as my hubby's bday. LOL... Happy anniversary, cheeyee...

mNhL said...

Happy Anniversary!!

One day earlier than Cleffairy? haha..just read about her anniversary at her blog.

Salute! U r such a wonderful wife and mother. U think positively to change the bad to good and that certainly makes u a happier person.

Mu hb also not romantic. We never celebrate our anniversary and b'day. It is just another ordinary day. But we never fail to celebrate the kids' b'day. haha

prince n princess mum said...

Happy anniversary!~

cheeyee said...

Claire,
Smallkucing & price n princess mum - Thank you so much!

Alice Law - Thanks thanks. Haha I never believe in changing people. :)

Cleffairy - Haha Happy Belated Birthday to your hubby!

mNhL - Haha same here, never celebrate our anniversary and bday but never fail to celebrate the kids' bday! :D

Broccoli Ginger said...

Happy Anniversary to you both!

Alice Phua said...

Happy belated anniversary to you and your hubby! Same here too, hubby and myself don't celebrate our wedding anniversary....it's just like any other day. I agree...sometimes for the best of a situation that cannot be changed, it's probably always best to change ourselves first.

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